Monday, October 12, 2009

Beauty full of memories!!

He took a deep breath and put the bunch of roses by her side. The sweet odour struck him. He looked around, wondering if anyone could help him...

Football match, his team playing, number 31 on his jersey... He remembered the final goal, the triumphant music, the noise of the stadium and her eyes. All the awards...all the support she gave him... He never told her how glad he was that she believed in him. Although it was the perfect moment...

The image of the wedding party stood before his eyes. She was there, her red dress, her dark hair. She really was a looker. He loved her very much. They danced all night. Mechanically, he started murmuring a melody from that day...

A chill of cold wind returned him back to life. His hands were very cold. It was so cold and so calm. Winter. She liked winter. She would go skating and playing snowballs with him. He remembered how they sat by the fire, clinging to each other, drinking hot chocolate. He felt warmth inside, almost the taste of chocolate on his lips....

Someone gave a slight cough. His memories interrupted. He looked before him - there was she. Dressed in white. Her hair was done the way he liked it. He wanted to touch her, but someone said it was not proper. It was the 26th of December, the day she loved so much, their 43rd anniversary. He put the red roses by her side, and, bowing to her, whispered, "You have still got the looks, I love you so much."

In a few minutes they closed the coffin....





Saturday, October 3, 2009

Bullets...Guns...and Cocain!!

you dont kno wht it feels like to wake up to the same dream every day
its like a splinter in your head...
lodged forver....mind numbing pain
never knew wht it felt like until THEN!!!

every morning when i look into the mirror..
i dont see my self
the walls on the other side arent familiar either

evrything i owned back then was bought with BLOOD money
the television,the showcase,the sofa...even the food tht i ate..evry bit of it

and i did away with all that..
everything but food
food sustains life...
and life is precious
smart ppl always value it the most
they never mattered to me
the ones who did.....wer shot dead!!

THEY CALL HIM THE FAT LUCKY BASTARD
HAS ESCAPED TWO ATTEMPTS ON HIS LIFE..
THEY SAY HE REFUSES TO HAVE BODY GUARDS
HUH...ONE FAT PRETENTIOUS LUCKY BASTARD
NOT THIS TIME..

that day my precision failed me
it cost me my reputation
one mistake and a lifetime of misery
but nothing lasts forever..
especially misery!
its amazing how a bullet can end a life and its miseries

one shot gone wrong and i am smoking cartons
it makes my hands shiver
in this trade,perfection cant have a tremble
but i am smoking now...y??....you wud kno if u wer me..

i lived a life of bloodshed...guts...and glory..
i had everything then...
EVERYTHING that matters.....
NOTHING TO ME NOW!!

sanity kept in..
i never had courage to..pull the trigger on my self
but desperation often drives a man to the brink of insanity
and i am desparate to set the things right
one last job and then .....its OVER!!

ITS AMAZING HOW A BULLET CAN END A LIFE AND ITS MISERIES!!!